this seems like its been a shitty month for me. im trying to see some good in it but im yet to find something, i have spent over two weeks in the hospital this month and almost the entire month bed ridden. i know that there is something wrong. i have passed over 13 kidney stones in the past month, had two stint insertions and removals, i have been pissing blood and have had a fever for a month, as well as an almost parylizing lower back pain on my left side........i have had no energy, i have lost over 20lbs not because of something im doing. and through out all this i am left with a shitty feeling that im not being a good husband, im not providing for my new wife, hell im not even working. this is ruining me, i just wish i knew, i wish i knew what was going on so i could deal with it, and be better for sarah. she doesnt deserve this she deserves better then i am giving her right now. i think i know whats wrong but i wont tell anyone espesialy sarah because she has to deal with health issues of her own

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